Home & Family

I am going home today...after a long time...i dont feel the enthu that i used to feel some months back about going home now...it just feels like everybody is busy with their own lives and not much interaction happens other than the usual catching up with questions like..what about higher studies? exams? apping? what about marriage? when are you getting married? etc etc...this is what happens even with family members..of course except for mom..which again makes me wonder and be eternally grateful to the wonderful,selfless,patient,caring human being that mom is...am i getting senti now??? i dont think so :) and even if i were...what the heck? Its normal to get senti at times :))

One more thing that i always wonder about is the connection that people have in general with family members...i sometimes feel everybody is just being superficial with their own interests standing ahead of anybody/anything else...is it really true? or am i being critical? i guess the relationship with family members is just different for different people..i have seen people who have very good relationship with their families..but very very few talk about all the things they might feel.

Anyhow, I am actually looking forward to having fun at home..especially Mom and homemade food :))

myriad ramblings

well by definition ennui means boredom...and i feel as if i am sinking into that day by day...why is it so? its like this nuclear chain reaction where once it is started it just goes on and on and on...recently i had a conversation with my manager regarding aspirations...he gave fundaes as to how the gap between one's aspirations and reality leads to dissapointment and depending on how big the gap is, it leads to frustration and then to depression( do anti depressants really work? or they temporary solution similar to drugs?)...well i guess it definitely makes sense..he also gave fundaes as to how one should have small aspirations/goals to start with and how one can gradually raise the bar instead of dreaming big in the first place and thus increase your chances of ending up with depression:(

well it does seem to make sense but then how do you know when it is small and when it is out of your reach ? how can you ever have an optimal aspiration, something which is nt too small to limit you abilities or isnt too big to be out of your reach? well i dunno..it seems like everybody's struggling with the same problem...so its ok...take a chill pill...relax..and let life take its own course...:)